Unleashed Thoughts

haaay…this is the reason why i don’t keep journals..i don’t get to write in them regularly…anyway, so much has happened since my last entry, and i don’t think i said much in that entry..

this week marked the end of my fourth week of teaching..haay…and over the past two weeks, i’ve seen hitting and pushing in my class of 2-year olds! aside from the worry of having more than one child crying, because they were hit, it’s also physically draining to carry them to the meeting area when they really don’t want to go back on their own. but i still love to be with my kids, because even though they tend to not listen, whenever they smile at me, whenever they hug me or call out "Teacher!"…i know it’s all worth it! i have also been encouraged through Teacher Mayda’s (my prof in practicum) compliments regarding my logs.Ü That definitely made my week alot brighter! haaay…God has been helping me all throughout..i know so..i wouldn’t be able to withstand everything on my own… honestly, my practicum experience has made me rethink entering preschool teaching, but of course…i love younger children..i don’t care how pilyo they can be…

on another note, i finally was able to have my Bible cover changed and rebound.Ü My BIble cover is now marbled purple! yey! hehe…and i only spent 60 pesos for its "face lift". la lang I just thought of sharing it…:D

God has blessed me so much every day..every week…and i am happy that He already has a plan for my life…a plan that is in my best interest..not to harm me, but to give me hope and a future…nice..swabe…ayus.

I haven’t been blogging regularly because of 2 things: (1) i don’t have much free time on my hands, because of the so many things i have to do in my practicum and other subjects; and (2) i have no access to unlimited internet during the weekdays.  so there. If you guys are familiar with the movie "FIghting Temptations", there is a song there that i like so much, i even cried during the first time i watched/heard it in the movie.

HE STILL LOVES ME

Took me a while, but I’m finally here

I just want to testify make it crystal clear {take your time}

See I’ve been picked out to be picked on

talked about out of my friend’s mouth

I’ve been beat down, ’til He turned my life around

seems like i always fall short of being worthy

coz i ain’t good enough, but He still loves me

I ain’t no superstar, spotlight ain’t shining on me

coz i ain’t good enough, but HE still loves me

i used to wake up somedays wishin’ i’d stayed asleep

coz i went to bed on top of the world today the world’s on top of me

everybody’s got opinions (they share) they ain’t been in my position

and it breaks my heart when i hear what they have to say about me (what they say about you?)

seems like i always fall short(fall short)

of being worthy (Lord i ain’t worthy)

coz i ain’t good enough, but You still love me

(no no but You still love me Lord)

I ain’t no superstar, spotlight ain’t shining on me

(i ain’t no superstar, but i wanna be for You)

coz i ain’t good enough, but You still love me

I’m not perfect, (i’m not perfect no no no)

Yes i do wrong, (yes i do wrong)

I’m trying my best but (trying my best but)

it ain’t good enough (just ain’t good enough)

shunned by the world (shunned by the world)

when i don’t succeed (when i don’t succeed-ceed-ceed)

coz i ain’t good enough (i ain’t good enough)

but He still loves me (but You love me)

if you ain’t worthy just raise your hands

let me know that you understand

that we are all so blessed to be loved (loved)

stand for Him, don’t fall for anything

coz thru His eyes we look the same

what will we do without pain

seems like we always fall short of being worthy (we are not worthy, no)

coz i ain’t good enough, (i ain’t good enough, i ain’t good enough)

but He still loves me

I ain’t no superstar, (i ain’t no superstar, but i wanna be for You Lord)

spotlight ain’t shining on me

coz i ain’t good enough, but He still loves me (but You still love me me)

i’m not perfect (i’m not perfect nonono)

yes i do wrong (yes i do wrong wrong wrong)

i’m trying my best (trying my best)

but it ain’t good enough (i ain’t good enough)

shunned by the world (shunned by the world)

when i don’t succeed (i don’t succeed-ceed-ceed-ceed)

coz i ain’t good enough (i ain’t good enough)

but He still loves me (y’all sing with me)

{raise your hands if you understand, how he blesses You, coz He blessed me too…}

though i ain’t good enough, He still loves me.

It’s such a comforting song…to know that though we may never be good enough, no matter how hard we try to meet His standards, He still loves us.  So if you think that you’ve committed a very unforgiveable sin, think again.  God has such a big heart, and loves us that He is willing to forgive us, if you’re just willing to be forgiven.;)  There’s nothing that we do, that God doesn’t know about. All that He is waiting for is for us to come clean and admit that we’ve been wrong.Ü diba? That’s why this song is one of my favorites, because it serves as a simple reminder that HE still loves me no matter what. And that’s a source of great comfort. It’s funny, because a song can be written for entertainment purposes, but then, it can mean something more to someone.